So here I am writing my first blog to release whatever fills my heart to the point of drowning. I’m currently reading mangas and i started to realize that i want to live in “that” world. I fantasize being in love and doing and experiencing all those exciting moments that was happening in the story. It created such a feeling that i need to release it in order for me to get back to reality (even though i don’t want to.) I get so immersed in the story that i even felt my heart prickling and let myself laugh and smirk and get so emotional as though i am experiencing whatever is written in the story.
Anime happened to have a big impact on my existence as i have loved it since i was a little girl. It ignites my passion for drawing and also taught me the patience in reading. I’ve created personalities that matches whatever i feel from the story. I become a different person and get adapted easily by letting myself be absorbed in these wonderful plot that i sometimes forget my own personality in exchange for what i have absorbed.
I was told that it was unhealthy living in my own world and needs to socialize more but i am really happy by how the things are going. Yes i feel awkward and a little empty whenever i snap back to reality as i really don’t grasp the idea of how to communicate well with others. But even though its hard, i still enjoy my own world and i don’t want to leave.
For now, all i could think of doing is making myself happy. Selfishly loving myself and let me sink deeper in my own trail of thoughts and never resurface again.